it's been a while

both since i've blogged on here, and also since i've felt this way.
things really couldn't be better...except things are falling apart.
you know that feeling?
the "so much it hurts" feeling?
i'm so there.

so don't cut any deeper than you already have.
it's killing me.

lately (EMBER MCBEASLEY READ THIS.)

things have been really good.
and i haven't said that in a while.
like, it seems to me that everything is working out just like i thought it would.
it's amazing, but true!
and i hate it that part of my happiness is due to someone else being disappointed...
but it's out of my control.
take that however it sounds, but you'd really have to know the situation.
otherwise,
i really couldn't be happier.
plus, i got the cutest text last night...
it said, "you smell like flowers."
it made me giggle. :)
anywayyyy, classes are good, i had to drop one...
but that's because i don't want to fail biology.
i hope to tranfer to johnson bible college and to do so i need to bump up my gpa.
YIKES.
in other news, i got in a wreck the other day.
it was legit terrifying, but i'm ok...just cuts and bruises.
the end.

alsoo, going to see inglorious basterds tonight! STOKED.
PLUS i have to say something to ember mcbeasley.
i know i texted you like a week ago and told you we were going to hang out
and i never followed through.
i'm sooo sorry!
like seriously you're one of my best friends,
and i always want to have you around!
like you seriously get me. :)
i proooomise that we will hang out this week.
LOVE YOU MCBEASLEY.

and this really is the end.
so the end.

LOVE

is a fast song [copeland]
wins [rob bell]
is not a mystery, it's everything [common]
burns brighter than sunshine [aqualung]
is for the first time [dashboard confessional]

"So this is strange,
Our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance
Where nobody leads at all,
Where nobody leads at all."

i guess i just have to believe.

i am so

glad this whole thing is over.
i want my bff back.
and for YOU to stay far, far away.
kthanks.

....

seriously.

gag me.
i'm two seconds away from being out for good.

confessions part 2

1. i am now a huge orlando fan, and dwight howard is my hero.
2. i'm changing my major to spite my advisor
3. i haven't slept before midnight in 3 weeks
4. i don't know if all this is worth it. i'm playing for keeps.