you really did a number on me.

these past few days have really made me think about...everything really.
basically, seeing you do this whole thing all over again had made me unlock all of these dormant feeling that i've been supressing.
so here it is, me laying it all out on the table:
**what you did reallyyy hurt me. i mean, the whole situation was new to me, and i had no idea how to react. even though we were supposably best friends before "it" happened, i felt, and still feel like i don't know you at all. it sucks a lot, and you handled it completely wrong. that's your bad.
**i can't shake this feeling; i think there's still things left unsaid, and i really want nothing more than to just have a balls out honest conversation about everything.
**and, seriously, the game is up, with me and everyone else you've been playing this whole time. if unloading lies is part of your new life, i don't want anything you have to offer.
basically, shut up and let me go...haha :) but seriously.

andddd thats pretty much it. it's just super frustrating, and i miss feeling close, but i can give it up if you don't want to be yourself anymore.

Whenever I look back
On the best days of my life
I think I saw them all on T.V.
I am so homesick now for
Someone that I never knew
I am so homesick now for
Some place I will never be

Time won't let me go
Time won't let me go
If I could do it all again
I'd go back and change everything
But time won't let me go

I never had a Summer of 69
Never had a Cherry Valance of my own
All these precious moments
You promised me would come in time
So where was I when I missed mine?

If I could go back once again
I would change everything, yeah
If I could go back once again
I'd do it all so much better

Time won't let me go
Time won't let me go
If I could do it all again
I'd go back and change everything
But you won't ever let me go


have fun with your boys. i'm done.