i forgotttt

to blog sunday
and i was sooo busy yesterday trying to study
so here are two of my favorite things ever
to make up for it

AND this...

:)

blahh

i'm sick
i really think i've developed asthma or something. no lie.
i'm listening to dave barnes, and watching the office.
i'm starting downtown owl by chuck klosterman,
i'll tell you how it is.
downtown tomorrow with the padre,
after LOTS of bed rest.
baking cookies for angela on monday :)

to make up for not blogging before

here's one of my favorite songs ever

abilene by damien juardo

I fell in love with a girl of nineteen
A black-haired girl I called Abilene
Young girl, where's your husband?
Sadly, she replied, I do not have one
Then it's you I'll marry with your parents' permission
No fine sir, they will not let me marry
For I am a young girl
And you are a man without money
Then I'll come by your window
Tonight when they both will be sleeping
Outside your window in a carriage I will be waiting
They'll awake to find you gone
Open their eyes and think they're dreaming
And never did they think
That their Abilene would leave them
Now fine sir, where is it you shall take me?
Is it in the mountains high
Or is it the deep blue sea?

so much for that

i started a blog yesterday, but i went to do my homework and forgot..so now i'm trying to make up for it.
here's what's up today:




i've been learning a lot from that guy, stephen. most people just know him from anberlin, but he also writes good blogs, and wrote an amazing novel. in his novel, the lead character, aiden, is introduced as a post-college barista with a fragile future, and after tragedy and facing the unknown, he finally realizes his purpose.
i think it's amazing to realize that anyone could be an aiden; people you run inti every day have secret pain and struggles that are never seen. it is our job to be jesus to them, i really don't care how that sounds, it's the most truthful thing i have thought of in a while.
so that's what i'm working on this week.

later resolutions

I'm now resolving to blog every day.
We'll see how long this lasts...
more later today. :)

paper tigers

so, lately i've had a lot of time to think...

and here's what's pouring out.

-anberlin was absolutely amazing. it was THE best live show i've ever been too, as well as the best anberlin show i've seen. they have truly outdone themselves. i'm kind of obsessed...haha but really, amazinggg job on their part. it's kind of funny, it was the first show where i didn't dress grungy, fight my way to the front, and worry about everyone else there. i really just enjoyed it. it was a nice perspective to have. another thing that made it better is the fact that i'm reading Stephen Christian's novel, and it's offering me such an incredible insight into their lyrics. he really love this one lady, christa paffgen (also known as nico), who was a german singer/dancer/model. she was the velvet underground, and was also a solo artist. she wrote a song called paper tigers, which was on the playlist for the novel. it's cool to see kind of an extension of your favorite musician's creative life. it's great to be able to completely appreciate the work of an artist. another amazing thing that happened was that Staphen Christian actually emailed me in a reply to an email i sent him about his blog. for the first time in a while, i actually like a band all encompassingly, instead of just pieces of the work.

-another thing coming up is a possible trip to new york with faceless international. i don't know very much, it's in new york city in july, and we would be teaching awareness of water privitization. more details to come.

-i finally finished my schedule for AASU, and i think i'm really beginning to fall into psychology.
i'm taking intro to psych, so i'm hoping i'll still love it in a few weeks...we'll see.

-from here, i feel like i have a great yea ahead.

"keep your head up, chin tiger."
-stephen christian

two thousand and nine

2009 reasons to better myself.
but for now,
anberlin next week :)


not to be such a creeper, but they truly are my favorite band.
second only to common's resurrection, anberlin's cities is one of my favorite concept albums of all time. that may not mean much because i'm only 18, but to me, it's a lot.
their music means so much to me. i've loved them since i was 12, and i don't think i'll stop for a while...haha

but anyways, one song in particular from cities means a lot to me,
it's called hello alone.
the lyrics aren't really unordinary, that is as far as stephen christian's writing is concerned, but the last chorus almost always make me take a deep breath:

Is anybody out there?
Hello, hello
Broken hearts like promises
Are left for lesser knowns
Is anybody out there?
Alone, alone
From a lesser known I’m here
And there’s hope, there’s hope

those lines are so powerful to me,
especially the line, "from a lesser known, I'm here."
what is a lesser known, you may ask?
well, it's someone who just lives.
an unordinary person who has nothing better to do than simply existing.
they need to realize that "there's more to living than being alive."

after a brush with dramatic events over the past few years, listening to cities has truly inspired me to live, and to transcend the ordinary.
i'm not living for just myself anymore, and i know this life's not about me.